changes in life.

So may 30th i found out that i was bringing a child into the world.. and i wasn't scared at all because i knew i had my family so close to me if i needed help. i had a supportive man who loved me and took care of my every need. It feels as in a blink of an eye i'm losing my entire family. One day my family lives only 30 minutes away and next day my mother is taking my sisters and moving up 20 hours away. I dont understand why she would want to leave me or her grandson right now. She is breaking up my family before i even have my family. Im scared to be alone out here with no one around for help. She says "I am just one phone call away". But, what about only half hour drive away when i need her. Even now when she is up there I do call her and she is too busy to me or i cant get a minute alone with her without someone breaking into our conversion. Im happy to be having a son but not happy that his grandma and aunts wont be living close anymore. Im unsure if they will even be down when hes born. I am blessed to have his family to be so close to us and to help me with anything i need but its still not the same as my mom.

teenage drinking.

so tonight I went to someones birthday party full of high schoolers that were drinking.. the moral here is what is the right thing to do? These kids were out of controll and not mature enough to handle this type of thing. some kids were drinking and driving home. how do i sit by and let this happen.. its not my place im not their gardien.. but i think to myself if that was my child i would hope someone would step in and talk them out of it.. or to do something at all.. so that is what i did ... took control. told people they couldnt leave if they had been drinking.. and took care of a baby while all this is going on.. im 19 not even old enough to drink but have common sense to be the adult in this situation.. i saw a car accident on the way home and it was really bad. i was thinking to myself what if i had let those kids leave and that was them? How would that effect my life? I would feel really guilty.. so am i wrong to do the right thing?

i have to admit my flaws too. i was to that age and not that i was drinking at 16 i was still into my own sorts of trouble.. and i was lucky to have someone step in and change my life forever..

which makes me a better person today. the person i think of when i think of the right or wrong is someone dear to me .. my aunt tamy. shes guided me for so long and shaped my life.. I hope threw me she can help change people to help make them a better person as well..

well goodnight.

getting that funk off your pans.

Have you ever made dinner and was so full you just couldnt do the dishes that night. I did last night. My pans were covered in gunk of old meat and the oils and burnt on hard stuff. I wasnt about to scrub and ruin my new sponge so i filled the pan with water and turned the stove back on. When i pour out the boiling water and burnt food i lightly ran my sponge right over the pan and it came right off like magic.. i was so impressed i had to write this down for others to find. im going to start doing this with all my pans. (photos to come)