As I stare at the sky,
I see a shooting star.
I think of you
And all that we could be.

I made a wish
Upon that shooting star,
Hoping you would love me
The way that I love you.

When I looked into your eyes
I knew it was true;
I loved you,
And I thought you loved me too.

Since then you found a girl;
I wish that I was her,
But I am not,
And I won't stop wishing for you.

Day after day,
I wish you would hold me tight.
Kiss me with your soft gentle lips,
And say that you love me.

But every time I see you,
You're holding on to her;
You're kissing her so gently,
And saying you love her.

I love you more than words could say;
I wish I could hold you night and day.
I'll love you always and forever,
Even if you don't love me.

be careful

Be careful of your thoughts, for your thoughts become your words.
Be careful of your words, for your words become your actions.
Be careful of your actions, for your actions become your habits.
Be careful of your habits, for your habits become your character.
Be careful of your character, for your character becomes your destiny.

graduation is making me feel many mixed feelings.
I am excited that im about to start the next chapter in my life. I get to be excited about making my own decsions and just in all i get to grow up. not that i havent grown up for real but i get that slip of paper that says i completed 13 years of something i have been working for even if i didnt like it all the time or want to quit most times.

but than im completelly scared out of my mind. I just cant handle the change. or being forced to do something everyday of my life into being my choice.

hope

there is one thing i hope in from life...
i hope i made my own path in humankind..
i hope i make someone so happy..
i hope that i can bear the most amazing children ever that willmake someone of themselves...
i hope that i can make my mom and dad proud...
i hope i dont fall on my ass..
i hope life isnt as bad as before..
i hope god forgives me for all i have done..
i hope my family will forgive me..
i hope im sucessfull..
i hope i can do my dreams and they will come true..



all i need is to have hope right?

YOU

Pushed away from the rest of the world,
Till you came,
You showed how to be human, yet sane
Careless is what I was
Till you came,
You showed me how to show a form of sympathy.
Why the effort, half the time I neglected your existence
But you still stayed?
You dont belittle me or Degrage me,
You just build me up like a skyscrapper,
till theres that day I cant support my weight,
and gravity brings me to the earth,
And I realize its not a dream.
It really was you all along.

family

i have pondered this so much lately who is my family??

do you pick who your family or are you stuck with blood???

some say blood is thicker than water..

but you know what the famliy i chose are in my heart and if they arent there than the heart is not pumping the blood..

which it doesnt matter if youi have blood or not bc its not being pumped..

so you do chose family and im glad i do bc i have picked some amazing people so far..

im not saying forget your blood family.. im saying keep the people you love in your heart<33

bc they truley matter in life

why

why did you let me down
why couldnt you just let me drown
why couldnt we be in just one town
why dont i have a meltdown
why do i have a frown
why dont i shutdown
why were you a letdown
why did say putdown
why do i have a frown

well now i want to cry
now i want to die
now i want to sigh
now i want to fly
now i want to deny
now i want to out cry

so i say good bye

winter

we had a great time at my dads house i wil miss himi but im gald to be home with my mom and just school is about to start and im so excited its going to be crazy being my last semester of high school than i go to college and i think i figured out what i want to do in life so im even more happy im going to stay home the next two years i hope.. who knows what is next???? life is such a mystry to me... that is the best part:)