Alan

so this is alan.
hes pretty much amazing.
we have been together for about 7 months and he makes me so happy. I love havin him in my life. We laugh everyday. We love everyday. There is so much I could say about him.
Alan has stolen my heart. He really does spoil me. Takes care of me and makes sure I am doing what I need to be doing. He is my prince charming. He is always here for me and never leaves my side. We are never apart. We spend all our time together and I hate when we are apart. I do not know who can spend as much time as we do together and not have big fights. We have little disagreements but we are lucky enough to have found the perfect person for us. I am the luckiest girl in the world!!! I love you.

It kills me that you act as if I'm pure death in itself
my love for you is unconditional, unlike yours.

This is the only way for me to be free
to describe my life and the twists and turns lime a tree.

I wish you knew me
and that I could be
oh so free


That's is all I want.
It's all I wish is to be understood and loved.

With life comes....

It has been a great deal of time since i have been on my blog writtting about what i believe and what i think is right or wrong, or what i feel..
but tonight i went threw something that is hard..

realizing the truth on which i was to recieve.. its sometimes really hard to accept the truth and that is what i had to do tonight.

i dont understand why the things happen the way they do bit i guess they happen for a reason.
It is possible that maybe it is just not my time yet and i will just have to accept that fact. NOthing more than a simple fact.
i guess the fact of life.

life used to be simple easy and pure.. its not that anymore..

As I stare at the sky,
I see a shooting star.
I think of you
And all that we could be.

I made a wish
Upon that shooting star,
Hoping you would love me
The way that I love you.

When I looked into your eyes
I knew it was true;
I loved you,
And I thought you loved me too.

Since then you found a girl;
I wish that I was her,
But I am not,
And I won't stop wishing for you.

Day after day,
I wish you would hold me tight.
Kiss me with your soft gentle lips,
And say that you love me.

But every time I see you,
You're holding on to her;
You're kissing her so gently,
And saying you love her.

I love you more than words could say;
I wish I could hold you night and day.
I'll love you always and forever,
Even if you don't love me.

be careful

Be careful of your thoughts, for your thoughts become your words.
Be careful of your words, for your words become your actions.
Be careful of your actions, for your actions become your habits.
Be careful of your habits, for your habits become your character.
Be careful of your character, for your character becomes your destiny.

graduation is making me feel many mixed feelings.
I am excited that im about to start the next chapter in my life. I get to be excited about making my own decsions and just in all i get to grow up. not that i havent grown up for real but i get that slip of paper that says i completed 13 years of something i have been working for even if i didnt like it all the time or want to quit most times.

but than im completelly scared out of my mind. I just cant handle the change. or being forced to do something everyday of my life into being my choice.

hope

there is one thing i hope in from life...
i hope i made my own path in humankind..
i hope i make someone so happy..
i hope that i can bear the most amazing children ever that willmake someone of themselves...
i hope that i can make my mom and dad proud...
i hope i dont fall on my ass..
i hope life isnt as bad as before..
i hope god forgives me for all i have done..
i hope my family will forgive me..
i hope im sucessfull..
i hope i can do my dreams and they will come true..



all i need is to have hope right?